Kimi ni Aisarete Itakatta

This is my first review, so it will not be something extraordinary or even good, I think.

Kimi ni Aisarete Itakatta, or KNAI for short, is a manga about the "bad" side of the world, with violence, hypocrite people, hatred and sadness. But overall it doesn't develop it very much, looks like the author just puts tragedy after tragedy for the pure sake of being dark and edgy.

Character: 2/10
The characters, aside from the protagonist, are shallow as a puddle, because 99% of the time their are just "Look, I'm a real hypocrite piece of sh*t that treats people badly most of the time!", and the ones that aren't like this, are just a little better as a person.

Art: 7/10
The art is good to set the dark aura of the manga, but sometimes the characters are just drawn a little poorly.

Story: 3/10

Ok, it is supposed to be violent and dark, but it is too predictable. When a new character appears you already think "It is going to be another bad person that treats the protagonist like sh*t", and aside from this, the plot simply doesn't exist, as the only thing that ever happens is: new chapter, new problem for our main girl. And when it is not her it is another character related to her being in a bad situation.

Enjoyment: 4/10

I don't know why I'm curious to see what happens, but it still is pretty lame and boring to read, as the story seems like a roller coaster through hell that you went millions of times and are not afraid anymore.

Overall: 4/10

If you don't have nothing better to do, or you like stories that are dark for no reason, you mitgh like this. Otherwise, I don't recommend it.

(simplified and compressed TL;DR at the end since this review might a little long)

You really need to be into a certain type of manga to enjoy this.

This a manga highly based on the person's tastes and I'll be honest, it's definitely not my preferred manga but I can still understand how it can appeal to other people.

If for some reason you enjoyed Metamorphosis/Emergence or other dark reality psychological works, you might like this. If you enjoy light-hearted, innocent manga, I'd recommend staying away from this.

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This manga is about the dark, horrifying, disgusting side of school-related reality that nobody wishes to be true but one that we know might be true, even if it's not talked about and the psychology of the characters inside of this harsh reality.

It follows a school girl who, in middle school, was being taunted and bullied for being 'uncool' or some other nonsensical reason and due to this, she grows into someone who becomes part of a type of group that she once hated, an elitist, stuck-up bully group. She's forcing herself to insult the type of person that she once was. She thinks to herself that what she's doing is wrong and that she shouldn't bully someone that she once was. But she can't stop because of her thirst for attention and acceptance. Thus she continues on, in this wretched, messed-up world, slowly deteriorating her mind.

Later, she comes to hate what she deems to be fake or ingenuine attention. She becomes jealous of normal, healthy families. It's often sickening but you still feel pity or maybe even sympathy for this girl. She could've had a good future, but because of what she was put through, she's forcing herself to make decisions that she doesn't have to make, forcing herself to think what she shouldn't think. Her situation in life is horrible and the more negative and harmful thoughts she has, the more her mind breaks. She transforms into a girl with bad circumstances to a girl who puts up a front towards some people while lashing out towards others and slowly becoming insane, flipping moods constantly which indirectly and directly causes everyone around her to lose their minds, transforming rising stars of the world to broken lunatics. This repeats itself over and over again until she eventually, breaks.

I really didn't enjoy this manga. I'm fine with works about dark reality but the reason I disliked this work in specific was because of the reasons and methods that it shows that dark reality. I know it's real, I know that some people have gone through this, albeit maybe not to this extent, but I know it's real and out there. It's simply the act of trying to read through all of this harsh reality that makes me queasy.

However, that's mostly my opinion. There are some aspects that I can really appreciate. And for that reason, I'll talk about the positives.

The side characters. More specifically the girls of the elitist bully group. They're horrible. In this situation, I'm talking about their personality rather than the way they're written as characters. These people are horrifying, but after some time, my opinion of them changed. When they're first introduced, they're introduced as the stereotypical gal girls that the author sets up for you to hate. But because of this set-up world and what the main school girl went through, they suddenly go from the 'You should hate this character' into more of a realistic group. When you take a look at them, they aren't drawn how other generic pompous gal girls are drawn. They look like normal girls of a normal friend group. They seem to care a lot for each other and the only reason why they seem like jerks to us readers is only because they just quickly assume scenarios at first glance. They don't have the backstory of these events, they're just making claims based on what they see, not what they hear. When one person does something that can be viewed as caring and nice, the others would often join in and some may even try to find a scapegoat for all the problems where they don't know the full story. They're quick to talk on someone's back, quick to change sides, quick to shift the blame, which is why they're so horrifying. Horrifyingly real. The author could've easily just made stereotypical bully group #2 but they didn't.

Now the hook. The hook of this manga was one of the biggest reasons why I stuck through it for more than 10 chapters was because of the hook. The hook of this manga is one of the few parts that I really liked. The first few panels of chapter 1 hooks you in. It gives you questions that you want answers to because of how unique the hook is. Who are these people, why did that happen to that person, what lead this seemingly promising individual to do something like that. What's their relationship. These questions start forming in your head and the more you read for the first few chapters, the more you need answers to these questions. The characters that are introduced seem completely opposite of what you saw in the first few panels. It was able to get me, who likes manga that are pretty much the complete opposite of this, hooked into the story and characters through questions rather than something like forced exposition or an out-of-the-blue sympathy backstory.

Overall, this is a manga about the psychology of the characters in a dark and demented world. If you can't handle or don't want to read a manga about dark reality, look elsewhere. Otherwise, try at least the first chapter and go from there.

extra: This is realistic enough to say that there are probably some people who might relate or have related to some of the parts of this. If you're bullying someone, try to see the bigger picture of what you're doing. If you're on the receiving end, don't look for drastic forms of revenge. Look on the positive side, don't be jealous of another person's situation, see what you can do for yourself.

-----TL:DR-----

This is a manga about the darkest side of reality. It talks about a girl whose mind deteriorates because of her circumstances both in her family and in school. Her mind becomes messed up and this affects every other character around her, eventually leading to a group of messed up characters making messed up decisions. It's a manga completely based on dark realism and pushes that genre while still making it feel realistic. It's messed up but sadly realistic in both the characters and the world they live in. Steel yourself if you decide to read this

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Just as I expected from the author who made Hop, Step, Hi, Kick. It's dark and brutal but indulgent compared with his other works.

***Advice*** Do not read the manga if you are a very sensitive person because you will struggle a lot trying to read this.

Story: The story is tragical, dark and brutal but it is very interesting and you will crave for more. Will it have a good or bad ending? We don't really know, the author who wrote this is Shiruka Bakaudon.

Characters: "Each one of the characters are not in their right mind." This is what anyone would say but, are they though? All of the characters are being influenced by social pressure and this is the main factor of the manga. As they want to make as less fights and problems as possible, they socially distance themselves and act according to the atmosphere. The way that this is represented in the manga shocked me because of how real it is.

Enjoyment: I enjoy this manga because its plot is interesting and one of a kind. You can't really find mangas that spit reality in your face.

Overall: This manga is a clear representation of how social pressure can influence people.

this is hidden gem why ?
because there is no longer manga like this anymore

this is masterpiece why ?
because it dare to make something new something none can do anymore
not only that it also done in a brilliant way to make interested and excited for every-god-damn chapter

we no longer have manga like this anymore yet people decide to come here and whine how brutal and scary it is


this world is filled with beautiful and lovely manga but what about us ?
us human who yearn for violence and some-brutal fked up things ? there is nothing like that anymore thankfully KNAT got you covered .

and the best thing its not alt-reality or people in a distant island nope not at all
it is your regular school girl but with a miserable life besides her lack of love and real parent she struggle on her own that led here to do some horrible things just to feel her existence
and guess what her school is the harsh reality where everyone bully everyone in a perfect world!!

KNAT is what you have been looking for your entire life not only the story is good the art itself is absolutely amazing well its not a secret he used to drew some Hentai in the past

as for normies just go on continue your boring life nothing to see here

**Warning!! This is a harsh and brutal manga, and will certainly make you feel depressed. If you are reading this for relaxation and laughter, this manga isn't recommended; however, if you want to take a dip into the psychotic and twisted human nature, this manga will open your eyes.

Story:
This manga revolves around the theme of “bullying” and “lacking personal core values”. Won’t dive into this too much since it will spoil the story. The plot flows well, and will, oftentimes, leave some cliffhangers for the following chapters.

Enjoyment:
I don’t enjoy this manga (mentally), but this manga’s story is so foul that it kept me, a rather innocent person, reading.

Overall:
This manga is an extreme example or lesson for people who need to know how to find the “right” friends and for people who lack self-confidence. If you want to see potentially severe examples of bullying and evil side of human nature, this manga certainly delivers.

P.S. You should be or must be THE ONE who chooses how your life should be. Do not be swayed by “expectations” or “norms”. (!!Under the circumstance of not harming or harassing other people!!)